Ugly fat lizard... occasional loneliness .. and a stubborn heart !

I am one of those girls... who are scared to death with the sight of an Ugly Fat Lizard while peeing... finish their business with their heart pounding ... eyes fixed at its slightest movements..they slowly crawl out of the loo and then run over ... to the bed.. 
           If you are one of those girls too... who try their best to get a sound sleep at night, but get disturbed by a weird image near your chair ...( formed may be by that jacket you had thrown in a haphazard manner) which has this capability of taking shapes of demons.. hovering over your bed... and so.. you decide to sleep with lights on . Its okay !
           Because, even if you are a girl who forgets to buy that one thing you needed the most.. and you have have so many things to do that you get tired just by contemplating them in your head and take a nap instead ! or even if you are a girl who makes a diet plan whole day and ends up having maggi and chocolate for supper.. still you can make it on your own... ! 
           You can do anything and everything ! because these stupid little things doesn't define who you are ! ... Its your decision of taking a stand for yourself despite everything else... that defines you !

           yes, its not easy, sometimes it gets frustrating.. irritating.. consuming.. lonely.. still you choosing NOT EASY... your stubborn heart...fighting to find your own ground and sky for you despite your irrational fears..  says out loud with every beat... that you can make it on your own !!

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  1. अभिषेक आर्जवDecember 15, 2017 at 9:10 PM

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  2. अभिषेक आर्जवDecember 15, 2017 at 9:13 PM

    Everydayness of life when confronts with deep rooted truths , pain , pleasures of our psyche, it results in a weird and in depth analysis of fat lizard enamating out of loo....

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