Be ecstatic for a change !

There are times when I feel, I Don't fit in the social structure of phenomenon... times when I feel, I am an animal...a wild animal trapped inside this Body! who just wants to rip apart everything in sight... decency, morality, femininity, culture, grammar... and most of all rip apart this female body and come out !!
        I want to roar and shout "Shut up !!!" ...
        I want to be ecstatic for a change !

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